You think you need to understand to see. Understand WHAT? You think if you get your head far enough UP your ASS you will see sunshine? WRONG.
You need to SEE, to understand. Seeing is believing because when you see, you KNOW. Then you believe.
As long as you believe without SEEING, you just let yourself be conned. You will never understand.
You think understanding will help you to see? You invent half-baked systems of knowledge and emotional yardsticks to determine if you are making PROGRESS. JOKE!
Progress is a LIE based on a linear "understanding" of existence that is not the result of SEEING but of believing. In a linear "understanding" of "existence," you are going to die, and all progress is - guess what? DECAY!
Spiritual progress is a mystical oxy-MORON and the mystical moron is you. You believe in something you have never seen because it does not exist except through your idiot belief.
I cannot set you free. You're the only idiot here who can draw back the curtain and see what's behind it. But I can help you to SEE the curtain: the same way everything can help you to see, by mirroring your phony baloney beliefs back at you, and revealing the tears and tatters of your leprous & crab-ridden "understanding" - until you see that the cloak you hide behind doesn't hide your ugly mug, the house you take shelter in doesn't keep you dry, the ground you stand on doesn't support you, and that you are well and truly FUCKED, from your balls (or ovaries, let's not be sexist) to your bones.
Then, when you fall on your knees and cry "FUCKIN' WHY??" to the sky, I will drag you to your feet and TELL you why. Because you are finally starting to SEE.
Sucks, don't it? And everything is up after that. You have reached the bottom of the dry well you call "spirituality."
Now cry Halle-fucking-lujah.
yes... but seeing the curtain does not mean it automatically moves aside (for me anyways). 'tis good to be reminded it is what needs to be seen through though. How about you harry.. what is your curtain?
ReplyDeleteSeeing the curtain is enough as long as you keep staring at it through the discomfort and embarrassment. It doesnt work if you cough, blush, look away and then conveniently 'forget' what you've seen.
ReplyDeleteThanks... that is good.
ReplyDeleteNot sure if the cause of looking away is discomfort or embarrasment... fear certainly rings true, lazyness too (but that's judgmental and surface for a deeper reason), discomfort for something I dont know how to do? & there is something 'convenient' about how I'm circling snd slipping past 'seeing' behind the curtain even though I am reasonably familiar with the curtain - it only occasionally lifts its hem. But not sure it's in my control - I've been told it's not by people who know these things. So I just keep exposing myself to different bullets in the hope some will hit. I know there are bullets I'm avoiding but not sure that they will kill 'me' as there have been bullet that have hit before that haven't. will have to try them at some stage though. Not sure it's as straight forward as staring at the curtain until you pop - but maybe it is - but then what's not as straight forward is being able to do it voluntarily. No free-will....
I don't know if it's that straight-forward, I'll let you know if and when I pop. But what do you mean by "people who know these things"? Who are these people and what do they know? If you mean people you trust, why not say that?
ReplyDeleteEmbarrassment IS discomfort and discomfort (unless physical) nine times out of ten has something to do with embarrassment - caring what others think or worse, what YOU think. Why would you care what your thoughts tell you? They always says the same shit anyway.
The spiritual path means discomfort just that same as a mountain path means uphill slog. You don't get up a mountain by staying on the nice even paths.
If you recognize you have no free will THAT FREES YOU UP TO DO THE UNEXPECTED - why repeat your lifelong patterns when you have the "CHOICE" to go against them, or outside them, and act in new ways? Living in the moment isn't living for the moment.